Can’t believe how time has flown since I last had my writing mojo head in place and sat here to create something!
Mind you – it may be that no one noticed which would be kinda sad but hey ho!
So where have I been I here you not bother asking? Well my head has been in a very dark place for the last couple of weeks, a dismal disappointment on the job front appears to have been the straw that broke my back! Many months worth of worrying, stress and insomnia rose to the surface and I crumbled!
I’m not a great one for asking for help, and I’m a firm believer that mummy just carries on and doesn’t break. Oooooops! I think I got a bit broken and didn’t fix myself quick enough. With my babies both in Scotland for a little holiday together I guess by brain decided it was the best time for a shut down and re boot.
So after many hours of tears and temper (and a cigarette – my first in 5 years – and my last it was very icky!) but with the ever present help of my best mate (and husband) Simon I asked for help – got the help – and now hopefully can pick myself up and get on with life!
Of ourse that is all supposing that the flat roof doesn’t cave in again, that the felters finally arrive and finish the building work that they are now 4 days late for and the boiler keeps working! For those of you who don’t know – we had a ;ack of ceiling moment during a heavy rain storm and have been without a bath or shower since the middle of July!!!
Roll on the end of the month when we can finally move into our new house and have none of these problems and no moronic landlord (the new one is bloody lovely!!)
So posts hear may be few and far between whilst I finish packing boxes but maybe my new surroundings will inspire my brain – here’s hoping!!
Thank you to those of you who have been patient with my lack of effort and contact, but most of all thank you to my babies for being there with hugs and my man for holding me up and taking the brunt of the crap whilst I hid away! xxxxx