September is all about back to school! Back to the routine, back to “normal life” Not for us this year – Badger has a new job starting, so new pupils to meet, new teachers to get to know and new classrooms to hunt through.
But mostly this month, our baby girl is heading off into the big wide world of university, our nest will be empty!
When we bundled our boy off to uni 5 years ago, it seemed like the end of an era. No more stinky teenage boy in the house, no more socks on the sofa and no more of my baby boy sneaking in for hug whilst we watched TV in the evenings. But my girlie was still here, so we carried on as a slightly smaller family, a hole at the table but still 2 parents and
Now I am broken, no more smalls in the house, no more ballet school pick ups and school plays. No more parents evenings and sneaking in to check on them once they are sleeping. Just grown ups coming home for a visit.
There is a little part of me that wants to go back to the beginning and start all over again.
A part of me that wants to wrap them up in my arms and never let them leave me!
But I know I can’t do that.
She gets her chance at the world now – her chance to explore it – take it on at 100 miles an hour – and make it a better place for everyone around her!
She will fly – just like her brother did, she will take every chance it gives her and turn it into something amazing.
My chest will swell with pride when she calls to say hi, and I will scan Facebook for pictures she uploads and look forward to visits home and stories of her adventures!
But in the mean time, when I’m here on my own, I think it will be ok to have a little sob and remember those days when they were both small enough to fit on my lap for a cuddle.
If anyone fancies joining me, like Chris from Thinly Spread…. well the kettle is on and the hug is waiting!!